You don't have to have the same relationship you had with your mother, with yourself.

Death by cookies.
Right?
I dunno. I'm floating in an altered state; half real, half surreal. Dealing with a lot. Trying to stay present, aware. Ducking out. Bingeing is to duck out. From what? Why?

Can cognitive therapy work with me? Can anything? Only the truth. The truth and willingness. Just stop eating. Pause. As James usta say: "Remember the Power of Pause" Pause before you take action.

Is it willfulness? Anger? At what?

Emotionally, I'm feeling pretty good. I think. 

Self doubt. Why?

Sabotage? To what end?

At work, I've been diving into the compass of shame. Now, I'm asking, -Attack Self?  Why?

"You don't have to have the same relationship you had with your mother, with yourself" -Geneen Roth
Distant. Cold. Afraid. Disdainful. Annoyed. impatient. Unsure. Unsure? Unsure! Self doubt because my relationship with mom was unsure. It was unpredictable. It was an unknown. It was invalidating.