You, my love, ARE enough!

I spent the morning sitting at the kitchen table shopping for mp3 players on line.  I got there because I was thinking about downloading some OA podcasts and realized I wanted (needed?) a better mp3 player than I currently have.

I'm going out for a walk in the snowstorm.
Just because.

I've returned. It was fabulous. It IS fabulous.

I'm observing the face of addiction today. Its a bit challenging to keep an eye on. I want to ignore the insistent addict's voice, the cunning slick, voice. I want to just ignore it and at the same time I need to be vigilant not to get sucked in to a misdeed.

I'm off to wash dishes and then clear the upstairs. I'm confident I will feel much better, more productive, less anxious if I clear these items off my to do list.

Listening to Geneen Roth. Still snowing.

Why am I at the workshop? Freedom! Comfy with the identity with trying to figure it out!!!!

Binging on chocolate chips. why? They taste good? They help me think? I'm sorting and trying to put order in to the room upstairs. I want companionship, I want comfort, I want companionship. I want to keep my hands and my mouth busy while I think. I want the chips because they are there. I want them and I'm not feeling willing to give them up. I could give them to Peter. I could just go down and put them away and act like a grown up. Peace is being a grown up. Peace comes through short circuiting the wiring. Obsessive, hungry wire. Procrastinator. Stuck. Go down and put them away. No guilt. Not yearning. You have enough. You, my love, ARE enough. Breathing.

Note to self. Not ready to have a bag of chocolate chips in the house. Or am I? Lets see. Don't obsess about food. Be vigilant and don't be sucked in. Be aware.