I'm happy. Peaceful.
I feel loved.
I like myself.
I love Peter.
I love myself more.
Life is good.

When did it change?

Its amazing, but somewhere back when I went to Halifax it all blew out.

I had the courage to say No! Enough!  - I hear you.  - I'm not going to be a chump!

I gave a date when I would leave: Sept. 1st . He said ok.

Before I went to sleep, I told him that if he changed his mind, it would be ok. He would just have to let me know. And so, when he work up he changed his mind. His answer was no. Please stay.

I then spoke of conditions: Kindness, truth. Authenticity. Tenderness.

Real peace. It begins within  each of us. Mindfulness. Be alert to the stories we tell ourselves.

I spoke to of filling the void, the emptiness of celibacy. Creating closeness. I said that I want an exceptional relationship. An extraordinary relationship. No more mediocrity.

He said, ok. And so, we've been practicing since June 12th. We've hit a few low spots since then, but insignificant really, especially when compared to the meanness, the hell of where we were. I feel almost superstitious to speak of the joy, the delight, the closeness I feel with him again. But, with the intent that comes from each of us, the willingness to try, and the desire to love, we are together. Its sweet and I like it.