So- when are you going to start standing up for yourself and saying no? Every time I promise myself I will take care of myself, and then I don't, I betray myself. I do this every day. Everyday I experience betrayal. What is that doing to my self esteem? Why would I let myself down? How do I elevate my personhood to the status of people that I love and to whom I would try very hard to honor... certainly not betray. Right?